Scary

So, today I decided to tell my psychiatrist I had depression. This was the first time I had ever told anyone. Heck, this was the first time I had said it out loud to someone else. Don’t get me wrong- it was terrifying. I was so anxious, and when she asked me more questions I…

Words

Hi guys I’m sorry I haven’t been able to continue the 30 day challenge I set for myself, I honestly have been so tired. But there’s no excuses, really. I am extremely sorry. I will still finish it, just not in the 30 day period. Anyways, what this post is actually about is what I’ve…

Yourself

Honestly,   try to listen to your body to your gut to yourself you will make mistakes but, in the end, you know what’s best because there’s no one else who will live your life for you who will stay with you every day.       . (Tuesday- if you are wondering why I’m…

TV shows

Hi guys, I honestly love to watch TV shows, so I figured I would share with you some of my current favorites: -Stranger things (*Season 2 now, woo!): yeah, yeah, I know, there’s a lot of hype around this show right now. But it’s not in vain! It is extremely well done, the actors are…

Note

Life isn’t supposed to be all about school or pointless jobs. It’s supposed to be about dancing your heart out to your favorite song in the middle of the living room. It’s supposed to be about hugging dogs and loving your family. It’s supposed to be fun. Not you’re own self-constructed prison.   . ….

Existence

Right now, I just want to do the things that get me out of here. Out of my own head, out my own body, out my own life. Anything to get me out of this numbness inside of me.       .   (Saturday’s post)

Death

Stupid teenagers Thinking about death Over and over again Until one day it becomes normal to them   Stupid teenagers with a greater pain than they could’ve ever admitted in death they look for relief   Stupid teenagers how could they ever understand they’re too young to know       Stupid teenagers more lives…

Sigh

I hate how depression is deceiving. Every time you feel sad, you wonder if you’re getting depressed or if you’re just sad again. It’s like you’re never truly happy because there’s always this shadow of doubt in your mind that follows you around, as if what you are feeling isn’t real at all. And to…

Life, I guess

I think one of the hardest things you have to do in life is to simply, wholeheartedly, accept yourself. Your bare soul and body. Without shame, without punishment. Just you and yourself. Together with love.

I’m sad

I’m sad you can’t kiss me. I’m sad you can’t hold my hand. I’m sad you can’t hug me. I’m sad I can’t kiss your cheeks. I’m sad you can’t be with me. I’m sad you can’t make me happy, Because neither can I.  

Self-improvement

So, I’ve been really enjoying doing yoga again, and today as I was meditating I realised something. I’m really freaking harsh on myself. And not on a constructive way- well, kind of. I thought I was just pushing myself to be perfect, but I’m actually pushing myself to be someone I’m not. That’s where self-improvement…

Me pumpkin

  So, as I’m sure as you all you know, Halloween is pretty much around the corner, and this year I promised myself I would carve a pumpkin for the first time. Every year I saw every one do it on youtube and it seemed a lot of fun, therefore I really wanted to try…