Scary

So, today I decided to tell my psychiatrist I had depression. This was the first time I had ever told anyone. Heck, this was the first time I had said it out loud to someone else. Don’t get me wrong- it was terrifying. I was so anxious, and when she asked me more questions I…

Words

Hi guys I’m sorry I haven’t been able to continue the 30 day challenge I set for myself, I honestly have been so tired. But there’s no excuses, really. I am extremely sorry. I will still finish it, just not in the 30 day period. Anyways, what this post is actually about is what I’ve…

Note

Life isn’t supposed to be all about school or pointless jobs. It’s supposed to be about dancing your heart out to your favorite song in the middle of the living room. It’s supposed to be about hugging dogs and loving your family. It’s supposed to be fun. Not you’re own self-constructed prison.   . ….

Sigh

I hate how depression is deceiving. Every time you feel sad, you wonder if you’re getting depressed or if you’re just sad again. It’s like you’re never truly happy because there’s always this shadow of doubt in your mind that follows you around, as if what you are feeling isn’t real at all. And to…

Life, I guess

I think one of the hardest things you have to do in life is to simply, wholeheartedly, accept yourself. Your bare soul and body. Without shame, without punishment. Just you and yourself. Together with love.

I’m sad

I’m sad you can’t kiss me. I’m sad you can’t hold my hand. I’m sad you can’t hug me. I’m sad I can’t kiss your cheeks. I’m sad you can’t be with me. I’m sad you can’t make me happy, Because neither can I.  

Self-improvement

So, I’ve been really enjoying doing yoga again, and today as I was meditating I realised something. I’m really freaking harsh on myself. And not on a constructive way- well, kind of. I thought I was just pushing myself to be perfect, but I’m actually pushing myself to be someone I’m not. That’s where self-improvement…

Me pumpkin

  So, as I’m sure as you all you know, Halloween is pretty much around the corner, and this year I promised myself I would carve a pumpkin for the first time. Every year I saw every one do it on youtube and it seemed a lot of fun, therefore I really wanted to try…

Blue eyed boy

I’ve been feeling like I can’t quite be myself in public anymore, since I’m always sad and I can’t show it. I can’t talk. I can’t do anything. All I can do is cover myself up, hide the black circles under my eyes with make up, and try to look nice. But what is nice? Shouldn’t it…

Forgetting

Can we really forget something willingly? I was thinking about this the other day while I was walking my dog, and I noticed a certain paradox here. I mean, if we’ve decided to forget about something, we’re going to try to do other things as to distract ourselves, right? And, right as we no longer…

Crushes suck

I sound like a 13 year old girl after her first eye contact with her crush, but I mean it. The thing is this isn’t really pain. Although, at the same time, it is- in a strange way. I mean, for someone who has to deal with mental health issues every day, this would seem…

The Future

When you’re younger you’re asked “what do you want to do when you grow older?”. However, as you get older that question remains with you, maybe assuming different shapes-“what do you want to do with your life?”, “what’s the course you’re gonna be taking?”, “who do you aspire to be?”. The problem I have with…